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Wednesday, 11 September 2013 15:04

This must be the place

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He slinked by, turned and glanced at me.

“Well, hey there, you must be Jack, eh?” I said to him.

 

He raised his head, strode over to my front porch, and extended a handshake. I had heard I was getting a new upstairs neighbor, and there he was standing before me. 

Living above me for the better part of this year, “Papa” Jack was a beautiful, troubled soul. Growing up in Virginia, he got into some mishaps and was kicked out of his house at age 14. From there, he worked in the orange fields in Florida, then enlisted in the Army after more run-ins with the law and eventually became a sharpshooter during Vietnam. 

“Well, my job was to kill. I did that, then went to bed, everyday,” he told me through saddened eyes. 

After the war, he developed severe post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), which overtook the latter years of his life, resulting in alcoholism and drug abuse. Add that to being a roofer for 30 years and his body paid the price. He’d routinely stop by my porch and chat, always wanting to know, “What’s in the news today?” 

The last time we crossed paths, he and I sat on the porch and shot the bull. We just talked and watched the world drift by. I’ll never forget his eyes, which were full of regret and loss. He’d light his cigarette, inhale deeply and exhale while leaning back into the musty couch with a sigh.

Before and after becoming a journalist, I’d crossed paths with numerous Vietnam veterans. Not that their stories are better or worse than those from other wars, but their faces and sentiments stuck out more. They didn’t get a “ticker tape” parade upon returning home or were properly diagnosed when something went wrong, physically or mentally. They came back and dealt with themselves and their thoughts, many-a-time alone with nobody to turn to.

I’ve always been an advocate of the phrase, “You may not support the war, but support the troops.” Being 28 years old, from a military family, I’ve seen plenty of my high school classmates enlist and be deployed into Afghanistan and Iraq. Many came home ready to take on the day, while a handful never seemed to ever want to arise from bed again. It’s heartbreaking.

“Papa” Jack carried his traumas with him like a bag of weights. He was broken soul among thousands of similar folks, people we all come across day in and day out. Recently, I was strolling Main Street in downtown Waynesville during their Labor Day weekend “Block Party.” My friend Louie approached me.

“Jack died yesterday, had a heart attack. Dead as a doornail, so I just thought you should know,” he said before disappearing back into the crowd as fast as he appeared.

I’ll never forget “Papa” Jack, and I hope, through this poem, that you won’t either…

 

“For ‘Papa’ Jack”

He moved like a man carrying two full suitcases

Swaying back and forth, laboring up the stairwell

Back to his sweaty bed and coffee-stained carpet

Sheets unwashed due to a lack of quarters

And lack of energy to make the two-block walk

And sit there at the coin laundry with faces

As ragged, distraught and demoralized

As what he saw every morning in the mirror

Tattoos on his chest of soldiers fallen

And remembered by those, and him

Who was bittersweet about being lucky enough 

To not come home in a wooden box

Tattoos on his chest in faded black ink

Covering his heart and lungs

Like marks of past transgressions

And burnt from infinite cigarettes

In shaky hands and lonely lips

Two polished, large sapphire pools

Tucked behind wrinkled flesh

Permanent lines and creases

From rare laughter in a rowdy bar

From often sorrow in an empty room

Another night on sweaty sheets

Another night of fear

From twilight visions he cannot escape

Grab for the bottle

The pill

The smoke

And blur the madness

Head upon his pillow

Eyes upward and out the window

Branches sway in southern winds

One day he won’t wake up alone

A day he’ll never witness from his empty room

For he’ll already be in that wooden box

As tattooed skin, wrinkles and creases

And a broken heart

Will dissolve where only bone remains

The common denominator of a man

Forgotten by the land he was birthed from

 

 

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1: The inaugural Shining Rock Riverfest will be Sept. 14 at Camp Hope in Cruso.

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